Family

Family with a capital F.

I'm not talking siblings and parent type family, oh no.
I'm talking, uncles, blasted cousins, aunts that type of crappy Family.

That type of family you spell with the same F as F***.
That type of Family is either a blessing or a curse.
In my case its the latter. You cringe to own them as relations to you.
Rotten luck. Rotten heads. Rotten people.

Its these types of Family that makes one understand quotes like:
'friends are God's apology for relations'

So true.

But the worst part is not admitting that you own this relations,
not even when strangers may step back with frowns when they ask,
'You're the niece of so-and-so?' or 'You're first cousins with them?' and then with raised eyebrows, 'No kidding! we'll be seeing you..' and you'll never see them again.

But when you see the flash of 'something' in your parent's eyes(the parent who owns this relation of course) that closely resembles hurt. Or when us siblings rant about what arseholes said Family is, and then the same parent says, 'He's still my brother you know...' and laugh it off.

But its not a bloody laugh.
Its a pity, that your parent has that excuse for a sibling with such a rotten brain.

So there all you imaginary folks who can sympathize, nod vigorously and rant along with me!

See ya!

Time to come back

Its the second of December, its 2:58 in the morning, and I am up.

Well, to justify that, I was busy preparing my module to submit to my tutor tomorrow and guess what?

Somebody, peeked in my window.
Not literally, this window.
I have one comment.

I can't say that I'm exactly happy about it though..
I kinda liked the feeling that my blog was open out there, yet it seemed impossible for anybody to knock on it.

Well it happened apparently, it was a call unto me, to move it.
The past months wasn't happy, that's what family does...they make you worry, and if you worry, they worry, and you know everything ain't right.

But hopefully soon. Not just the windows, but doors are going to open for us.

Insha-Allah.

Regret is an after thought?

I know, I know.
What do you do when a sibling, an older sibling is royaly mad at you?
The worst part? Its totally your fault!
Ah a predicament right?
Yep. I so did not mean it, but when its your fault,
when you wiped the entire memory of your sister's precious
Blackberry, what on earth will rectify the matter?
Deffinitely not an Adidas T-shirt.
Especially when she writes on her MSN page:
My revenge will not only be sweet but DELICIOUS!
and you know who she's meaning..
Why did I have to fidget???

Family.

We can't choose them can we?
And by 'family', I'm not meaning siblings, they're a topic all on their own.

We can smile when they talk about everything that revolves around themselves (Aunts), nod while they discuss world issues as though they're politicians themselves(Uncles),
and barely refrain from rolling your eyes, when they prattle on about their little dramas (cousins)

Oh, and don't even get me started on the Grandparents! Not to mention those reaching mental breakdowns.

After a while don't your facial muscles begin to protest?

But the other side of my brain is telling me not to generalize, something that I hate when others do, specifically parents....so yeah, okay not all cousins are that shallow or boastful. some are bearable. Huh?


F.E.